Since becoming pregnant I’ve notice lots of changes in my life. My feelings, thoughts, wants, needs and just my general outlook on life. I think this pregnancy has changed me a lot as a person and with that has come changes with my interactions with other people. I’ve noticed many relationships in my life are no longer the same, this pregnancy has brought me closer to some people, reconnected me with others and put a rift between me and some people that I was once very close to.
Firstly, my relationship with Yang is totally different than it’s ever been in the last 6 and a half years. She has become a lot more protective of me and more of the caretaker in our relationship. This is really new for me. She does things that I used to do like cooking and cleaning. She really wants me to just relax, rest and keep our baby safe. Yang and I have connected on a new level as we enter the new stage of our lives together. It’s amazing that we’ve grown and been through so much together. We’ve grown from immature twentysomethings into mature young adults. We’ve both changed a lot over the years but we’ve changed together. We have a closeness that I never knew was possible and I have a feeling our bond will strengthen even more once we have a small life to look after together.
Then there’s the relationship with my mom. As I’ve mentioned here before, things weren’t always that great with her, but have been a lot better lately. She calls often and we can actually talk without me wanting to hang up. Things with my sisters are pretty much the same we chat about any and everything.
The relationships where things have changed for the better but some for the worse are friendships. I have some friends that I’ve been really close with for years that I now have little in common with. I haven’t gone completely baby crazy its just my life is changing in ways they can’t understand. This baby is a really, really big and important part of my life so it’s only expected that I spend a great deal of time preparing for them and in turn I want to talk about it. Certain things that I used to be interested in I no longer am, now I prefer to spend my time online researching natural birth, cloth diapering, breastfeeding, attachment parenting and other baby stuff. My friends that aren’t in the parenting stage yet of course aren’t interested in these things so theres a blank to be drawn when it comes to conversation. I feel like I’m fishing for conversation and rather than deal with awkward fake conversations or deal with them having negative responses to all my plans or views I’ve taken to distancing myself.
On the bright side since getting pregnant I’ve connected with some other friends that I had lost touch with and I’ve made new friends too. I enjoy talking to other moms and soon to be moms who can understand where I’m at now in my life.
This pregnancy has changed me and my life so much but I wouldn’t have it any other way! My hopes and dreams are coming true and I’m going to be a mom!
Written by Yin!
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